Hello there, hari ni ieka just nak luahkan apa yang ieka pendam and ieka simpan all this time. I know slowly day by day the mirror that I've shown cracked. Cermin yang selama ni menunjukkan ieka okay, ieka kuat and all of that. I just dont know what to say. Sakit bila kita tak dapat nak luahkan perasaan geram, marah, kecewa kat sape sape. Sakit bila kita nak cerita but seems like nobody act care about me. It hurts so much till I cried. Some ppl just dont know what I've been through and decided to listen what shit other ppl have been saying about me. And then they start to judge me as a stalker, as a girl who are desperate. That kind of ppl who think they are 'matured' enough should go back to kindergarten. It's bcs ppl who are 'matured' enough takkan nak sebarkan aib orang. Sedangkan budak sekolah mcm ieka ni pun tak berani nak sebarkan aib orang.

And seriously selama ni ieka sabar. Ieka diam je. I didnt even show my frustration to anybody. Even my family didnt know about it. Bcs this kind of ppl who are quick to judge, some ppl decide to suicide. Lucky me, ieka still ada otak. I hate this kind of ppl in this era. Even teknologi maju tapi fikiran entah kemana sampai takboleh fikir mana baik mana buruk hanya sebab sayang. Yes bodoh. It bcs i used to be this kind of person so i think its stupid. Cause at the end, ppl still gonna leaves you . Plus ofcos lah percaya sbb sayang. Bodoh kan. They just dont want to hear other side and then decide to judge. Later then, maafkan. Maaf apa when i did nothing wrong nor i ruin anybody relationship. Dah judge then minta maaf. Sorry but ieka bukan seorang pemaaf. Why should i forgive that kind of person after what they hav done to me? First they keep talking shit about me, then spread it to their friends. Later then, nama ieka jadi buruk. Even my family name's. And then easily ask for a forgiveness. So what i'm saying is, bila dah dengar sebelah pihak, jangan cepat sangat nak judge orang. And jangan jadi bodoh hanya sebab sayang.

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