Okay ieka. Aku nak cakap dengan kau ni. Aku tau semalam kau ternampak perempuan tuh update instagram and she get back with him after all these years plus you're fcking says congrats to her. What was that for?I know it hurts ieka. But you still control yourself and you didnt cry that night. You still hold it till now. But why the hell did you keep on thinking about him? Its no use ieka. He doesnt care ieka. Probably he didnt even remember you. And why you still want to stalk him huh? To hurt yourself even more?? Come on ieka. I know you are tired with all this fcking pain but you have to be stronger for your future. Your SPM is few months away. You shouldnt be even thinking about that jerk. I know you're asking yourself why you have to be strong when its all useless. But babe, did you want him to see you in this pain? The pain that he gave to you? I know you cry a little bit this evening but you hold it right away. That's good. You should courage yourself more ieka. You have to love yourself first. You should proof to him that you can live without him. You should proud of him. Because he dont hate that girl anymore. Maybe he decides to change to be honest in his relationship.

I know you're in pain. He's happy while you in misery that he gave to you. I know you mad at him because he's the one who made you didnt want to meet new guy anymore He's the one who made you like you dont have feelings anymore. Ieka, if you want to cry then cry babe. Dont hold it for too long bcs it would only cause you a pain. I know you have nobody to tell to. You only got this blog. Ieka you have to realize that you have to be happy too. Dont you want to be happy with someone new in your life later? You learn to let go but the pain still dont go away. I know you have been keeping all the pain by yourself but dont give up. I know you're crumble down. That's not good. Think about your parents. Please not yet. I promise you ieka that you will find someone who love the way you are and accept your imperfections and he's gonna make you're the happiest girl in the world then start a new life with you. Remember that? Okay now wipe your tears away. You look ugly when you crying.

Sincerely from yourself to your heart Ieka :')

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