Assalamualaikum blog sayang. And Hello :)

Tahun ni macam rajin pulak ieka update blog kan? Haha biasalah. Banyak benda berlaku dalam masa tiga bulan. Baru tiga bulan but still everything happens. Family, Friendship, School, Lovelife and etc. Things like that had happened and I'm stronger than ever plus survive till now. Hehe xp

Family, well something had happened on February lepas and I think I got depressed because I've been keep it for years till last february. It got worst till I have to meet a counselor at my school. I told my counselor about what I have been keeping and I cried so bad. So bad till mata ieka sembam then balik sekolah nangis, malam nak tidur nangis. Ieka mesti depressed sangatkan? Haha xp. But I'm okay now. Me and my family okay too. I've been happy than ever. Hehe xp.

But then, friendship problem came. Its not that worst but still i can feel the gap between me and them. It hurts you know when you feel that your friendship are broke apart. I've asked them if I ever did something wrong or diaorang ada sentap ke tak? But they say nothing. I told them how I feel, but my friends said its because all of us are tired with the schooling thing. Maybe but sometimes I feel like there's a gap between three of us now. I have to stay positive and try harder to make the friendship work out but now, it got okay a little bit. But still, Haih idk what to do anymore. I can only pray for the last long friendship. Or maybe, all this time I was thinking negative and I got a little emotional. I dont know.

While school thing, haih I really got tired. Tak sampai setengah tahun pun but I'm really drained like seriously. This one week holiday, I got so many thing to do, study, homework, tuition. How's that? even more I have to study all the subjects from form4 chapter. I hope i can finish it in this week although it looks like impossible. Ieka harap sangat ieka dapat bertahan sampai hujung tahun nie laa. Sebab this year, everything is about speed and rushing. Not kidding. Habis cuti ni, ieka ada exam tengah tahun, kerja kursus untuk akaun and Ieka kena belajar cepat sebab nak habiskan semua chapter sebelum raya. tidak penat kah itu?

Lastly ofcourse, lovelife. Like I have said before, I have no lovelife anymore. But maybe I cant really be confident about it because semalam ter-stalk ex dia and then I saw something that I shouldnt see. Those picture, two of them holding hands and sitting really close. Although I've said ieka memang dah move on. Still it hurts. It because I have been waiting him for 3 years so it is hurt. But now, eventhough rasa sakit, tapi sakit tu cuma sekejap and I'm fine after that. Means I already move on now. And Now Ieka ada suka kat someone but more to crush since for now ieka takda rasa nak couple. At least Ieka ada jugak suka kat seseorang. Means Hati ieka takdalah batu sangat kan? Haha xp.

Anyway, I'm happy right now. Too happy. A new change in me perhaps. A good change happen to me. I'm glad and I learn how to 'redha' and let go of something that I shouldnt hold onto. I promise myself to be happy and look forward. I've learn that every second are important and I have to make it happy for a good memories so it can remain on my mind forever :)

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